I'm in an interesting place.

Everything around me is kind of floating in time and just... hovering. Where was I? I forgot what I was writing about. It's been a slow and quiet week of just waiting, wondering, questioning, enjoying my time, and spending time with people I am really starting to enjoy. I just feel very wrapped up in love, wrapped up in caring and not really sure how I'm supposed to pick it up and carry it with me.

You know... I am waiting and watching and listening and learning. I have found myself in a comfortable place where I'm fighting to stay - I can feel myself stopping and starting, rejecting it for no apparent reason, and I have to find a way to stop doing that. If I don't, I'm going to end up hurting people who definitely don't deserve being a part of the stupid shit I put myself through. So! This week... I will be at the gym every day (as opposed to the lousy twice a week from the past two weeks). I will find somewhere to volunteer some of my time. I will rewrite my cover letter and resume to match each job I apply for this week.

Eh? How cool is this?


P.S. I love being on unemployment. :-D

Labels: 10:2, 2009, change, friends, jobs, state of unemployment